There is a lot I could say to preface this, but I'll be brief. Thoughts patterns really matter. Especially the ones we rarely verbalize. Several recent experiences (such as Caleb's RSV) forced some of my deep-rooted perceptions up to the surface, and they surprised me. Spiritual concepts that I grasped intellectually were suddenly new and difficult again, because I realized they weren't deeply rooted in my heart. Because those roots only went so deep, that hard moment was HARD. Processing it was hard for months. BUT that heart-break experience and soul-sifting process opened my heart and helped me internalize gospel principles on a new level. I'm confident that the next hard thing won't be nearly as hard, because my faith is deeper. Altering some of my less-faithful thought patterns has not only helped me process difficult experiences, but has also made me more free, more full of joy, and more prone to peace. This is far from a finished process!! For example,